sábado, 31 de dezembro de 2011

I want him

I want to lose weight so the person I love will love me back. I want to look him in the eyes, touch his face, hug him and kiss him. I want him to say "you're mine". I want him to be mine. I want to live in the same city that he does. I want to study in his school. I want to sit on a random beach and just cuddle with him, listening to good music and talking until the sun goes down. I want to walk around holding hands. I want someone to say that we were made for each other. I want to eat my favourite ice cream flavour with him. I want to smoke weed with him. I want to go to a show with him. I want to get drunk with him. I want him to introduce me to his friends as his girlfriend. I don't want to cry anymore. I don't want to dream about him again. I don't want to sit down, look at the stars and imagine what he's doing right now. I don't want to miss him. I don't want to cry everytime I look at a picture of him. I don't want to pretend I'm happy. I just want him.

sexta-feira, 30 de dezembro de 2011

I feel...

... so empty.


I think I still love him. After all this years. When people talk about love his face appears immediatly in my head. I feel like I'll never find someone like him, serisously. Otherwise I would have found already. My best friend says that we were made for each other and that he's with the wrong person. He just doesn't know yet. Honestly, I think like this sometimes, but it sounds so unreal at the same time that I just feel like an idiot. Maybe that's just what I am. An idiot that will die alone because she can't find a boy that she loves more than this one. It's so weird, I just feel like he's the one. I don't know what else to say, I'm just so confused, I don't know what to think anymore...

terça-feira, 27 de dezembro de 2011

Blink-182 - I Miss You

"Hello there,
The angel from my nightmare
The shadow in the background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
And we'll have halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends


Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, miss you)"

I think my head...

... is going to explode!


Hello people. I'm sick... My head hurts, my throat hurts, even my ears hurt. I hate this! I spent literally all day sleeping, and I barely ate. The only thing I could eat was my mother's rice. Like a soup. With rice. Whatever, it was very good. I've been listening to dubstep a lot, lately. Me gusta! Oh my God, my life is so lame that I don't even have a subject to talk about. I'm talking about my stupid day, for God's sake... I need weed.

quarta-feira, 21 de dezembro de 2011


I can't do anything right. Every move I make is a mistake to someone. To my family, to my friends, maybe even to my rabbitt. There isn't one thing that I do right. Not even one.